Ever read a verse and fill instantly convicted and deeply challenged? I did reading this psalm! Verse 17, in particular, struck a chord in my spirit.
David is penning these words on the heels of a great failure. At one time his heart was incredibly sensitive to the things of God, but over time he has drifted from this place and now finds himself broken, after many months of refusing to repent.
David mourns the sin committed and pleads with God to forgive him--to show him grace. His heart is truly broken and his spirit crushed by what he has done. He took a while to get there but it shows us the attitude we must all have to our sin.
I believe that having this kind of heart--one that breaks at the sorrow of sin and quickly asks for forgiveness--is one of the most necessary things you or I could carry with us daily. If we can be the kind of people sensitive enough to know when we've failed and can humble ourselves before God to repent, there's no bounds to how God will use us for His purposes. Humility is the kind of thing God loves to respond to and use.
Carrying a broken heart daily is incredibly valuable and here's why. Matthew Henry shares this perspective about the broken heart,
"His heart is broken, but in necessary humiliation and sorrow for sin. It is a heart breaking with itself, and breaking from its sin; it is a heart pliable to the word of God, and patient under the rod of God, a heart subdued and brought into obedience; it is a heart that is tender, like Josiah’s, and trembles at God’s word. Oh that there were such a heart in us! How graciously God is pleased to accept of this."
Carrying this same spirit every day is a walk of humility. It's a heart that recognizes sin and mourns it. It's a heart that is open and teachable. It's a heart that is patient in the correction. It's a heart that is tender.
Who wouldn't want that kind of heart? I know I CRAVE it! Having read this Psalm and felt the nudging of the Holy Spirit to respond, my prayer moving forward is that my heart would become more like this each day. That it would soften and tender towards the things of God. That it would feel sorrow for anything contrary to God; eager to repent at it's misleading.
Will you pray for this same heart?
Some of you reading this can sense the Holy Spirit convicting your heart towards repentance. Don't hesitate as David did; confess your sin with a crushed heart and lay it all out for God. He has both the power and desire to free you of your guilt and shame; to wipe the slate clean and make you white as snow.
If there isn't a sin poking to be confessed, carry this attitude with you daily. Ask God to help you be sensitive to your failings; that even if a negative thought crosses your mind you would be sensitive enough to the Holy Spirit to immediately repent.
Just as David repented from a great failure and went on to continue great works in God's name, you are still a vessel God can and wants to use.