All the Feels // Insecurity
Insecurity was an ugly, unwelcome companion in my life for many years. In fact, there is one particular phrase that still echoes in my mind like a broken record under the right circumstances. It’s the phrase, “I’m not good enough.” Maybe a similar phrase plays frequently in your mind as well, and it’s so familiar that it feels like an old comrade keeping you company.
"I'm not good enough."
What will they think of me if I do this?"
"Look at their life; mine isn't as good as theirs."
"I don't have any value after what I've done."
When we put stock in these phrases and give them validity, we allow pieces of our potential to be chipped away. The truth is, God never wants you to feel inadequate or not good enough. He wants you to be aware of your weakness that you might lean into His strength, but never for a second does He want you to diminish your value.
I get goosebumps when I read The Message translation of 1 Peter 2:9-10.
It describes that we are CHOSEN by God, not for ourselves, but to be an example of His power to take you, “from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted.” You are SOMETHING. You are ACCEPTED. When you or the enemy begin to whisper attacks about your value, rebuke such words and remind yourself of what 1 Peter 2 says.
You need to know right now that you are valued. You need to know that God cares more about you than you could ever comprehend. You must understand that His love is deeper, wider, and higher than you could imagine. Collapse into His love for you. Embrace His care. Trust that how He has designed you is wonderful and powerful. You have a purpose and calling very specific to how He wants to use you; that’s a lot of thought and planning set aside specifically for you and you alone.
When you think your gifts are not as important. Rebuke it. When you feel your experience is lacking. Lean into His. When you feel your value is nothing compared to another, trust what His word says about you.
Don’t allow insecurity to diminish your potential or steal away your calling. It will if you don’t keep careful guard over your heart and mind. My prayer is that you will walk forth with the power of Scripture to know you’re valued and have a purpose that insecurity has no part in.